I want to make a 70s disco track

I want to dance on a beach

I want to burn good intentions into a fire and watch the smoke rise

I want my wants to rise like a phoenix from the ashes

I want a window looking into a secret garden that is mine alone

I want the things my childhood promised me

I want to be the daughter that still believes in better worlds

I want to be the son that still has faith in greater love

I want to rely on the sanctity of promises

no matter how silly the oath nor how great the consequence

I want to remember that people aren’t good or bad but that our actions can be flawed

and I want to remember that we can all be remarkable and achieve the unimaginable

I want to be afraid

I want to be afraid of things that matter

Not dwelling in a state of constant dread

I want to be strong in my vulnerability

I want to deny denial from my organs

And accept that I have both hate and love in equal measure coursing through my veins

I want to use my hate and turn it into passion

I don’t want to make art that speaks

I want to make art that shouts into the empty spaces

I don’t want my words to fill a void

I want my words to show you the depths of the abyss

I want to stand with you and shout into the hollow

I want us to be heard

But really heard

Not listened to with mock interest like a record that can be paused on a whim

I don’t want to be rewritten in a way that’s easy to endure

I want to be heard and felt and wanted

I want to be the grit and the grain

I want to feel hurt

because it means I will have felt love or acceptance at one time or another

I want politicians to be held accountable

I want to have a pension scheme and rainbow laces

I want to dance in the dirt by the river at high tide

I want to feel at ease without looking for the cracks

I want to understand the world without hating humankind

I want to make a 70s disco track